first blog is always the most boring..

now i was a little apprehensive about writing a blog. i never really wanted to share my thoughts, feelings and perceptions with the outside world more than i felt necessary. which to most of my fans would probably seem more than enough receiving the occasional face book status update , or an interview in a magazine.

but since i have reinvented myself and i have decided to take a new path in life i felt perhaps i was being some what cruel and a little untrue to myself being so hidden and reserved. i mean if you knew me in real life you would pretty much know part of my life story within hours. i guess thats the trait of being a Sagittarius. or perhaps the naivety of being a 20 year old subjected to a world full of bullshit and fakeness.

i don't know how often i will use this blog. it might be once a day, once a week, once a month or maybe even once a year. but if your trying to get to know me that little bit more then i guess here is a good place to start.

if your looking for pictures of me naked, or dirty talk then you have most certainly come to the wrong place. just because i do a particular job it does not make me a nymphomaniac and automatically make me a slut. but the majority of men are far too stupid to understand this.

i don't mind people appreciating my body and complimenting my beauty. this i have no problems with. but for all the emails i get requesting blow jobs, and other sexual activities your emails disgust me and i have no time to even contemplate replying to you and your sordid desires.

i have a heart. perhaps you should take that into consideration ?!

and just to clarify i never became a ' glamour ' model to become famous or marry a footballer. i fell into the lap of this confusing profession by having no other options and wanting to see the world past the small town i came from. a part of me also wanted to prove to the world i could use this as the platform to achieve my destiny. and i have succeeded in doing so.

you might not understand me or what i write. but if you could read to the bottom of this and get a rough idea then i applaud you for reading my babble. and i will continue to write rubbish for all of your frazzled minds.

'my heart was once black. you destroyed my mind. you took the blood from my veins. you made my eyes blind.

love had no meaning. what was love? what did it feel like? can you touch it?

now everything is restored. and i can see again. you made me. so for this i thank you. '

love kitty lea.

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